Okay y’all, it’s Thursday, so we getting personal up in here. This is story time. I am sharing this story because I was never someone who knew how to eat normally, and I would have done anything to learn how. In fact, I did do any and everything. The diets, the over-excise, the laxatives, the courses, the 12-step program… I mean if you’ve been here, you know.
A few weekends ago, I was at my good friends bachelorette party. I got there pretty early, like 8AM, and I was starving. Side note: I am so grateful that I am hungry now, because I could go hours without eating. I was a professional at intermittent fasting, and I wore that like a badge of honor. Hello, increased cortisol.
For breakfast, all they had was bagels and muffins. That isn’t really my thing, having a bagel or muffin for breakfast leaves me tired, cranky, and hungry a few short hours later. Then, one of the girls pulled out some cereal.
Now, I freaking love Froot Loops. Froot loops were my binge food in the past – meaning I would eat an entire box in one sitting. With ease. Now, I eat them maybe like once or twice a year, solely because I don’t need to eat that anymore. So, I grabbed two boxes and ate them.
I ate the food normally.
The Froot Loops were just as good as I remember! I enjoyed the conversation with my friends while eating, finished the two small boxes, and continued the day.
Now, let’s fast forward a few hours later.
Many hours (and a few wineries) later, one of the girls sat down next to me, and told me she wanted to talk to me about something. This is what she said:
‘I can’t stop thinking about watching you eat the Froot Loops this morning. You didn’t look at the calories, you didn’t say no, you took two small boxes, ate it, and didn’t say anything else about it. I can’t eat any of that, I always have to know how many calories I’m eating, and I just can’t understand how to do that.’
First, I gave her a big hug. I knew exactly what she was talking about.
I was that girl who didn’t know how to eat normally.
- Get internally jealous watching people eat normally
- Binge eat alone after being at dinner with girlfriends who got a delicious meal, and I got a salad
- Drink to get blackout drunk so I would stop comparing myself to my thin friends
- Cry alone in my car after spending time with friends watching them eat
I didn’t know how to eat normally. I didn’t know how to be like someone who just ate the freaking food. It took me 16 years to figure out, and you can read more of my story here.
If this sounds like you, please know you aren’t alone.
Here are ways you can learn how to eat normally:
- Take the words ‘good’ and ‘bad,’ or ‘healthy’ and ‘unhealthy’ out of your vocabulary: when foods have a negative connotation, chances are you’ll feel guilty after eating certain foods.
- Incorporate foods that you normally restrict in a small capacity each day to expose yourself to it (and realize that nothing bad happens)!
- Stop comparing yourself to others, and remind yourself you are working on yourself both physically and mentally while you go through this.
- Practice gratitude through journaling each day. By having gratitude and being positive, you’ll naturally want to make yourself feel good by making better choices over time.
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